Today was my sleep in day. Michael got up early and took care of the boys while I slept the morning away. I think i’m just nocturnal. Maybe I’m still on Hawaii time? I don’t think so because I was doing this before I went there.

In the afternoon, we had pancakes for lunch. Mmmm…. I still have to learn when to turn pancakes over and how hot to make the stove. Sometimes it comes out too gooey or too dry. But it’s a big family hit.

After that, we went down to Elixia and signed our life away with the membership. We found out that childcare wasn’t included, but it was only 1 euro per child per day. So no big deal. We like the child care area much better than the other club, so we signed up. Michael played with the boys and I worked out on the treadmill. They have “techno gym” treadmills and they are really nice! They have a TV built in with all kinds of controls. It actually might be really good for my German! I listened to my iPod, but watched Jerry McGuire. Next time I’ll watch TV. I’m planning to do more classes than just being on the treadmill though. Tomorrow I’m going to try the “WoYo” class, which is Workout Yoga. Hope I can muddle through it.

Then in the evening we went up to visit Riki and Arne and stayed a long time. Michael talked with Arne about Canada stuff, since they’re going on a trip soon, and I talked with Riki about working again. I realized that I’m procrastinating getting my resume together because I’m so afraid of failure. Afraid of looking stupid in an interview or not meeting expectations on the job. I know it’s really dumb but at MS, I always felt constantly stupid since everyone around me was so smart and knew so much more than I did. And maybe since I haven’t worked in awhile the fears are more amplified. I know if I do work full-time again, it would have to be in web development. I love it so much and I could do that forever. But for part-time work, I’m willing to be a lab monkey or do manual testing, whatever. The talk was good for me, and it did change my attitude to “just try it and see what happens”. Why am I so afraid to look stupid in front of Germans??? Geez!